Special thanks with lots of Gratitude to all HART Research partners for selflessly being a Participant through HART and offering guidances and messages to clients or others in need, in HART Sessions.
This specific client ( name changed) has extended her gratitude, sharing here for the purpose of - a. How HART a Psychotherapy Spirituality therapy helps b. How working through every message in thought and action helps to make real change c. How removing the defensiveness in ones nature can actually help us make strides in the direction of our soul Journey.
*The Verbatim email Message as sent by the client, name changed for confidentiality*
Wow. Dr. Gupta, thank you (and Gurjot) so much for this. I have played it many times and have been thinking, reflecting and journaling about it a great deal for the past few weeks. I hope you don’t mind, but I wanted to share a written reflection about it. I appreciate you have many people to help and I don’t expect you to read it, but it felt important that I “say” these things to someone and “get it out”.
“Kia has scattered all her energies”. Yes, this is true. It has been a theme for much of my adult life. I’ve tried to fool myself by saying I’m ‘experiencing what life throws my way’, and I certainly have done some very interesting and exciting jobs, dated or befriended all sorts of people, and had many experiences. But that’s a cloak to hide that I don’t think I truly know what I want, so I just sort of ‘take what I can get/ what’s on offer’. I have gone after a few things I wanted (teaching English overseas, working with animals), and neither was satisfying. The job I’ve done the longest (a lighting technician for concerts and TV, about 4-5 years) I had zero background in. I’ve held 3 different accounting jobs, despite being quite bad with numbers. I worked on an assembly line after graduating from the top university in the country; ran music festivals until I had a ‘nervous break’… things like that.
I have started to focus the last few years on what I am talented at & affords me a work/life balance to do things I want to do. So I’ve been a writer for the last few years and transitioned into digital marketing during the pandemic. I find it fulfilling, although the demands of my regular full time marketing job with my freelance clients can be challenging, but I see where I have been learning the value of just focusing my energies on one thing, rather than trying to “fill my work plate with the buffet of life”.
“Her relationships are also screwing her up… there are some attachments with a previous relationship”. Yeah. This one was hard to hear, but the truth. Immediately I can tell you the relationship in question. I got involved with a man about 4 years ago. It only lasted about 9 months, but I do carry the scars to this day in a way I have never felt before. I realized (AFTER I had let him move in with me, of course) that he was a drug addict and a narcissist, and my attempts to “help” him (i.e. a place to live, a regular job, encouraging him to get clean) only played into his goals. The relationship ended after less than 3 months of cohabitating, but damaged how I felt about myself. I felt stupid. Exploited. I was ashamed of myself, and felt de-valued in the eyes of my peers (many coworkers, I later found out, thought very poorly of him).
Perhaps significantly, I experienced my first “real” panic attack with him; it was the day he paid his half of the rent, making our cohabitation “official”. My body shook so hard in bed, as though an inner energy was desperately trying to get me away. My legs wouldn’t work so I had to crawl to my bathroom. I spent that night curled in a ball on my kitchen floor, unable to be in the same bed as him. He offered no assistance. It took 1 mg of Lorazepam and 20 minutes alone in the bathroom every day just so I could exist in my own home. We broke up less than 2 weeks later, but I continued to suffer about half a dozen more similarly dramatic panic attacks, always in response to him- a text message or even seeing he had used my Netflix account was enough to make me throw up.
I feel I have taken into my identity the idea that I am “someone struggling with anxiety”, “someone who suffers from panic attacks”, etc. Hearing the Participant say I have “got an understanding of her own identity though this relationship” hit home: these problems are not who I am. It was just something I experienced, and I can let it go.
Finally, the advice that I need to mediate on my Root and Sacral chakras- I think my heart jumped into my chest when I heard this. A few days after the breakup of my previously mentioned toxic relationship, I suffered extreme stomach pain at work. I went to the hospital, and discovered I had a large ovarian cyst that had ruptured. I didn’t even know I had cysts, and here a doctor is telling me if it had been just 0.5cm larger I could have died from internal bleeding. After this I was introduced to the idea of the metaphysical causes of health problems - I could just imagine the cyst growing every time I bit my tongue to “keep the peace”before I just exploded.
The relationship was a horrible experience in my life and affected how I felt about love and about myself so badly that I was eager to prove to myself that I’m “over it” ASAP. But hearing the recording and reflecting on it made me think otherwise- my taking the time to heal is NOT him “winning” because I’m admitting I’m hurt about it, it’s an opportunity to grow stronger where the hurt was. Most everyone will meet a narcissist at some point- how lucky am I it was only for a few short months, it left no “lasting damage” (like if we’d had kids), and it’s allowed me to learn more about healing and how the mind & body work than I ever could have expected.
“She needs to allow the higher beings to help her”. This makes me want to cry. Knowing I’m surrounded by such healing energies in the universe, to the point that other humans will channel messages and healing energies to help me… it gives me such hope. <3
I appreciate very much the recommendations to meditate on the root & sacral chakras and seed sounds. I have been doing a guided root chakra mediation from YouTube most days, and also a root chakra yoga practice. I am meditating more regularly, making spending time in nature a priority, and finding excuses to walk barefoot outside. I’ve been inspired to learn more about Reiki, and being more aware of the healing energies that surround me and being grateful and welcoming to them.
Thank you again for your healing and time with me. I am truly appreciative of it. Although I have a lot of work still to do, I am enjoying letting it change my life!
I hope to reach out to you soon for another appointment hopefully, but I felt compelled to thank you for the HART message and let you know I’ve been taking it to heart.
Thank you, Kia (13.06.2022)
(About HART Messages for Seekers
Technique used : HART - Healing above Regression Therapy (A Psychotherapy-Spiritualistic Technique)
These are verbatim messages, as given by the Divine/God, using the voice of the research Participants, connecting to them in deep meditation / trance states. No background information/history about the person in question is given to research participant, for receiving these messages, Only their first name is given. The universe knows, who is that person for whom the message is being asked. These messages cannot be further explained or interpreted by me.)
Article contribution by the client. 🙏
Blessings Renuka Gupta,
HART- FOUNDER, RESEARCHER.